MAYBE........

THIS IS NOT PREACHING.. (cos im obviously not christian or some staunch buddhist) i think im gona leave this entry here for a long time.. hope yu guys can read.. esp pple like dear, tag, panpan, phyllis, lide, ritchell, jialing, jingmin.. whom i saw wrote some thoughtful entries recently.. haha. hope this tiny effort means sth to yu pple!

BUT IF YU DO HAVE THE TIME TO SPARE,

READ THE FOLLOWING AND THINK ABT IT..

mum passed me a hard copy of this and it took me awhile to type too =)

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Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before we meet the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we dont see the one, which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the one you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we dont know what we have until we have lost it, but its also true that we dont know what we have been missing until it ARRIVES.

giving someone all the you love is no assurance that they'll love yu back!

Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doens't, BE CONTENT IT GREW IN YOURS.

it only takes a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, BUT IT TAKES A LIFETIME TO FORGET SOMEONE.

don't go for looks, they can deceive. don't go for wealth, even that fades away. go for someone who MAKES YU SMILE, because it takes only a smile t make a dark day seem bright.

find the one who makes ur heart smile.

dream what yu wan to dream, go where yu want to go, be what yu want to be, becuause yu only have one life and one chance to do all the things yu wan to do.

the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the best of eveything that comes along their way.

happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, whose who have searched, and those who have tries, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

LOVE BEGINS WITH A SMILE, GROWS WITH A KISS, AND ENDS WITH A TEAR.

the brightest future will always be based on a forgetten past, you can't go on well in life until yu FORGET ABT UR PAST FAILURES N HEARTACHES.

----- now here comes my FAVOURITE part ------

when yu were born,

yu were crying
and everyone around yu was smiling.

live ur life, so that when yu die,
yu are the one smiling
and everyone around yu is crying.

*^%*@$%*!%$(!*^(&*!

alright kaihong,

beat it.

its jus a friggin passing phase.

it will pass.

tho i duno isit liquid, solid, or gas.

woOPies...

jiayan: haha yess shall live n let live. nice one.. haven heard tt line in qt awhile.. im ok liao laa.. shall learn to close one ye to such stuff...

guan: yea im itching to play ball again. but all d pple i noe who plays ball are in army lehh.. yu get ur frens laa.. den let me know. i anytime :)

yessss. im in a HAPPY mood. BEAMssSs. jus came back from dear's place.. woOO i smell like dearrr.. hahahahaa. morning met dear to do gym at clementi!!! 1st time leh! hahaa.. she was like being v paiseh abt gg gym cos she's neva really went to one.. we've been toking abt gg together since ages. finally we get to do it! :) luckily today's a weekday and mornings usually don't have alot of people.. so yea. lucky for dear lorr.. she ran and cycled and taught her some free weights exercise.. dear so long neva run still can run like 15mins and cycle lehh.. im rather impressed. heh.

yea den had lunch at central and heaed to her house! oh and its d 2nd day spent w her liao.. yest too! so happy. haha.. i remember telling vic shoe and gerard tt day dear and i recently learnt to appreciate our quality times tog much more.. last time was always movie movie movie... shopping.. blabla.. nowadays we do much more strolling, walking, cuddling on the sofa watching tv... dun spend a single cent and yet enjoying each other's company... :)

yea i showered there lorr.. used her shampoo and soap so i smell like dearr! :)) relaxed and used comp while.. den we got down to watching "elections" that hongkong show starring simon yam, tony leung kar fei, louis koo... i brought the dvd lorr.. i actually watched myself at home once already.. but i thought it's nice so i'd let dear watch too... brought a few other DVDs for her too lorr.. den i oso used her Uzap zap zapppp.... oh DO YU kNOW.. i bought UZAp too!!!! hahaa.. me and my parents shared the cost laa.. its qt fun to play with actually..at 1st ticklish.. but whOa yu can really feel the fats wobble woOBle wobBleee.... hahahaa..

anyway yess! we were saying how we'll miss one another once army comes.. really lorr.. like no one to hug for soo long? no one to look deep into the eyes for soo long?? no one to kiss goodbye too??? boO. so now gona spend as much time as dearr.. *NODS. but still we must have time for frens too! :) haha so tmr dear's gona met up with her gals for tanning n swimming session. sounds fun aye? i think its gona be... hahaa... as for me ima gona buy army stuff with the class guys who haven went in.. (actually jus 4 of us.. i make it sound like alot huh) yeaa.. hopefully we can do sth too besides buy our stuff.. time to chiOng "catching up" b4 going into army and losing contact with the worldddd...

hair cutting dayyy

i hate pple who leaks SECRETS.
esp those which were told in moments of
desperation, sadness and helplessness.
doesn't mean letting yu know, yu can let others know too.
it is told to yu cos yu r dependable, helpful, AND COS I TRUSTED YU.
neva thought a listening ear will end up a back-stabber.
what's the point in telling yu?

i might as well use the loud-hailer myself.

buzz off.

sorry for the outburst. haha.went sch in the morning to get school chop for my scholarship documents.. and asked miss lim to help w some stuff lorr.. in d end had to run some errand for miss lim.. haha that is to mail letters for lyanna yuhang and ann.... cos deadline is today for lyanna and yuhang lorr.. but i heard is cos miss lim dragged v longgg.. haha duno la. its so bloody ex la speedpost. i neva knew. 2 standard sized letters cost 17bucks man. WHOAA. hmm den went fortune centre to pei dear cut/highlight hair! haha.. not bad lehh. but colour abit not there. sighh.. but generally its alright la.. took some pictures! =)



before dear cuts her hair



after dear cut/highlight hair.. cant really see colour here though.



clearer? haha..



i didn't cut.. but yea so its jus a random pig.

anw wads written at d start.. dun ask wad happened. it might not have happened to me.. cld be wad i see from pple's experience blablaaa.. or stories i heard... i've seen qt alot of such stuff b4.. so now im jus writing some random thoughts on this matter. seriously if i know someone backstabbed me the way i described, i wld be so friggin pissed and put off. sumtimes yu feel like there's no one yu can really trust. not when ur best fren turns his/her back on you, can appear to be ur best buddy still, really... but yu somewhat know tt person has been talking behind ur back... letting on ur secrets to other pple even though yu trusted him/her soo much when yu told him/her those stuff.. aiya forget it. its gettin abit too much for me..

period.

mahhhhjong

been updating qt alot aye? haha. but dear's angwee i neva care abt the combined blog. haha shall update there soon too =) hmm today went to gerard's house.. tog with vic and shoe. haha all tuition mates in sec sch.. vic has been my fren for at least 8 years.. yupp den i guess one of them suddenly decided to have a meet up session lor. i haven seen gerard in abt 3 years? haha. shoe abt 1 year laa.. vic on off still got. yea. mahjong at jurong was fun =) food was YUMMILICIOUS too. the shepard pie is damn good la. his maid made it. HAHAHAahaa.. i tink its funny.

his maid made it. heh. yea but we're so tempted to jus scoop out the chicken meat under all the potato laa.. but siann he say his mum n sis still needa eat. yea we ordered pizza as well. yummy drumlets. oh yea i tink his maid is v nice and friendly =)

yea so mahjong was fun. haha. lost abt 5bucks la.. 1st time play with those tokens lehh. qt exciting. hmm den later vic had to rush off to family dinner while gerard shoe and me cabbed to town to watch floorskillz 2006. abit sian diao at first cos i was kinda dao-ed by sam.. i mean i promised him to come watch... den plus i was interested to watch oso cos i've neva watched tournaments b4.. den i was standing quite at the back w my frens.. called sam a few times.. den found him standing infront so excitedly went to find him wana say hi.. den i tapped him, he turned back look at me, den turn to the front again. i waited awhile.. den asked him if start liao.. den he shook his head, still looking forwad.. waa ok. den i paused. and asked him again isit haven start.. den he nodded without looking at me again. i was like huhhhh. did i do anything wrong? i looked at him for awhile hoping for him to say sth.. but noo.. so feeling like a fool, i just went back to join my frens... i thot he had some private issues so was down or wad.. cos we still sms-ed abit while i was playing mahjong. but after tt i saw him cheering on come bboys lehh.. so umm i oso duno why laaa... but jus now sms he say he gestured me to wait.. which i din see la.. but i thot he cld have said a simple harlow... or jus sth to acknowledged my presence. shrugs..

anwwwwwwwwww.. yea its was qt an eye-opener.. got see that "HEY CHI FAN LE MA" guy... hahhaa... the koreans were pretty good. there's this last group oso not bad.. haha this damn tall n big ang-moh (who appeared in this month's MEN'S HEALTH) did this back flip in mid-air.. haha nice. den there's this group waa they keep doing those hand spins laa.. like compete see who do more.. haha. and i have 3 videoss.. sam yu wan can get from me.. or cach too haha since ur so interested.. or anyone laa.. yea after the 1st round me and shoe went off lorr.. gerard alr headed off to his fren's place for BBQ halfway through.. haha and tts abt it.. tmr will be qt a siann day i predict =(

YESS.. i cant wait for this movieeee........
coming out july i think..
dont mind me, but i love johnny depp =)

aRmy daze =)

waa jus bathed.. had a fun night. haha.. hmm but in d day was rather siann.. dear had class meet-up den i was at home gaming and i upgraded my singnet plan. its now the 38bucks per month thingy.. heh. yea den met dear at clementi around 4.30pm and headed to bugis. dear dresses rather nicely today! BEAMS. yea den we ate dinner at the food court.. cheap cheap.

den walked around waited for time to pass lorr.. ohh we went to walt disney shop!! she bot a white top with micky mouse on it while i bot a white shirt with a few green stripes and a pissed-looking donald duck saying "i shoulda stayed in bed..." HAHA. me and dear thot its damn funny and cute laa.. heh. its 22bucks. ok laa.. dear's one is 19bucks i tink..

yupp. den it was 8pm soon. so we headed to national library, which was opposite bugis. yea the drama centre is pretty cool. got damn lots of pple directing us to the door and to our seats. haha. yeaa overall it was enjoyable!! hossan leong is seriously good la. hahaha. little wonder he's called the SINGAPORE BOY. i hope to see more of his plays.. or i hope he'll do more stand-up comedy.. hmm den KUMAR was fantastic!! he's freaaaaaaakin funny i tell yu. he act as the indian girlfren. den his actions, laughter, damn funny laaa...

MSN he pronounced as YAM AS YAN...... can yu imagine that? hahaa...

"i love yu... i love yu more than singaporeans love PAP....."

hmm den the rest of the cast was pretty good too.. shiekh heikel (however yu spell it) is also sooooo cute la. his tummy is like bulging out like nobody's business.. and forever talking cock... haha.

"its not abt how big ur fish head curry is.......
its how small is ur claypot......"

hahaa... lame lehhh.. alot of hokkien vulgarities also... umm too bad tmr's last day i tink... so i cant tell yu guys to "go watch it".. haha. but i truely laughed alott.. haven watched a performance/show/movie and laughed that much before liao lehh..

thanks dear for buying the ticket!!! haha i know yu meant it as a surprise.. like tell me on tt day itslef tt yu've got d tickets... but in d end yu still told me before today.. but nvm laa.. still thanks alot dear! =)

got more things to talk abt.. but its getting late n i gota go call dear.. haha.. oh hmm hope stayover's fun for yu guys lehh.. sigh. siann. tmr gg to watch floorskillz w sam i tink.. haha. quite excited..

some thoughts.

hmm im not too sure who reads this blog.. the number of hits to this blog doesnt match the number of notes left.. so yea. haha.. duno who reads every word of my entries. but im gg to write sum stuff laa... but leme do some re-cap 1st.. =)

yest was uber fun. met canoe guys to play ball in sch. fun! den met dear to have lunch and then headed to ginza plaza to buy my bag!! whooa im damn happy with my purchase. (hey even samuel said its NOT BAD leh.. if he says not bad den its really good man. hahaha)

30bucks for a ZINC bag.. originally 35.90.. but cos last piece den i asked him to discount. furthermore i actually been to this shop while working.. den noticed got nice bags so i made a trip back just to buy.. and guess wad, he RECOGNISED ME!!! hahaha.. so yea. felt damn happy =)

hmm den went to JEC lorr.. decided to watch a movie. decided on V FOR VENDETTA. im so happy we din make other choices.. cos its a really good show i tell yu. i've neva watched sucha policitcal movie tt encompasses action as well as romance and is very much a thriller as well. hugo weaving did an excellent job with the mysterious title character "V", creating a poetic, intelligent, and compassionate yet ruthless character. if yu din know, he's AGENT SMITH in MATRIX... he's damn articulate laa.. belting out the long and cheem script shakespearen style... his character provokes thoughtful questions in a dystopic future and every emotion of his character is brought out by weaving's performance. he proves that he can still be an absolutely expressive actor even when he's wearing a mask. his physique, body movement, and his cool and calmly malevolent voice all add up to truly bring a charming, well-educated, and even often poetic, but lethally dangerous assassin, to life. I SO SOUND LIKE IM TRYING TO SELL HIM. BUT HE'S REALLY GOOD WADDD.. can yu imagine? whole show doesnt show his face at all laa.. yet he manages to bring to life a plastic piece of mask. IMPRESSIVE. and natalie portman is good too. that breaking-down scene is damn proo and memorable la. some pictures.. haha.

went zouk last night w dear n her classmates.. saw many other hcjc pple too.. and last time nanyang girls laa.. and ritchell and yanye too.. haha. it was pretty alrite. reached rather early w dearr.. den like its SOOO empty. neva seen a club so empty b4.. haha.. den after 11pm it became qt stuffy and crowded lorr.. tried dancing at mambo awhile.. den decided its too boring so went tog w dear's class to phuture.. R&B is always good =) yeaa but it was really stuffy there.. met other hcjc girls there.. haha.. pretty good work-out there.. as all of us were qt sweaty from dancing.. den moved back to mambo area.. music was beta.. den danced till abt 2am den dear had to leave.. sadly. yupp so we left lorr and i went back to her house to stayover.. yuppies..

left her house early morning and came back to slp. went office in the noon to return stocks.. den met up with sam at raffles city starbucks to just talk some cock. qt abit of cock actually.. haha. talked abt uni.. talked abt pple around us.. hmm abt tag's recent entry as well.. haha. well i tink tag ur entry abit too pessimistic and extreme la huh? i dun believe pple "forget friendships" or the "everything that we used to share".. tts abit far fetched la huh... pple jus might not have the time to go out n stuff.. these things do happen ma.. lidat den bobian la. i mean wad to do right if tt guy really has sth on.. i tink shldnt scold/blame/be angry/condemn sucha a person lorr.. on another hand some pple who AHEMM "feels like going home" and not choose to come out.. haha den i'll abit bushuang laa.. but its okk.. everyone has their lazy side. i admit i sumtimes am like that too. so i bushuang myself. hahaha... hmm but i know sam is damn on one laa.. just now he came from home to meet me for like 3 hours den later i went home and he either also went home or went changi to read books himself.. zaii.. respect. hmmm den sumtimes i cant go out when he asked me to he also wun press further or say i not happening or wad... cos fact is i really cant go maa.. yea so tagg.. relac abit la. ur entry is so depressing and in ur won wods, nonsensical... ur frens are still very much around yu. like today yu also had stuff on den cant join sam and me wadd.. den am i supposed to say that "yu are forgetting our friendship" ?? haha no right...... hmm just shrug it off nvm lorr.. this time cant go out then next time lorr.. hmm even when i was organising the class dinner, some pple din come.. but i wasnt angry or held anything againist them maa.. haha so hope yu see my point la huh? i know yu're entitled to ur views but this is also just my view and im letting yu know =)

oh. and tmr.. got class stayover at charmaine's house.. hmm i wana go.. duh of cos i want right... but dear was soooooo nice to buy army daze play tickets for tmr night.. 8pm.. supposed to be for my bday present. den i tink its illogical to not send her home after tt cos it'll be around 10pm... cos its "only gentlemanly to send a girl home".. hahahhaHAHA.... den i take back to boon lay with her.. den head down TO PASIR RIS AGAIN?!?! waa i tink tt'll be quite gayy and tiring.

BUT THEN again.. if i dun go..

will pple start to point fingers at me again?
will it make me seem like a person who doesnt like spending time with d class and frens?
then pls tell me why i bother to organise class outings leh.

sigh.

PICTURES GALOOOORE

oh im so lazy 2 blog.. i'd let pictures do d talking.. haha..

umm open houses were so-so..
NUS was most generous with gifts.. bag, soft toy, tatoo, water bottle.. but i confirm not gg there..
NTU was messy.. i duno why d hell they chose sucha small venue to put their exhibits.. dun they have bigger areas? make whole place damn squeezy and uncomfortable la..
SMU was the coooolest. very jubilant it seems. even dear calls it a "shopping centre".. hahaha...

class dinner was good. betta den expected. the talk-cock session was great. its really too bad d rest din come at all.. yongjun chinhoe andy xiaoyin and mel.. sigh. otherwise its really full attendance man. we were saying have another one b4 april army boys go in..
haha am i organising yet again? :D

below are some pics taken with dear and my class...
for more pictures of the dinner.. come here! http://zorpia.com/chian

@ blue lights place.. playing wacko =.="

other half of table

04S65 @ LOVE

for some reason sam looks highhh...

me tag and extra sam

=)

BEAMS :)

pOintsss...

what's in d sky???

=)

daniel ong @ NTU

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

i typed a rather long entry..........
and my internet explorer jus crashed.

im not gona type everything out again.... so im gona summarise.

last day of work sucked.
SIX hours of work and they ask for more..
even though i have sucky locations.
bah. never mind. i'm outta there.
if they wana cut my pay i really got nth to say la.

tmr's start of university open houses.
qt worried i'll be swayed again..
im alr rather settled on tourism at NTU..
but im afraid gg to SMU will make me feel like gg there..
haha indecisive huh?? rarrr..
ohwells ima gona apple for all schools anyway.. see which accepts me lorr..

and den the scholorships and financial assistances thingy's getting into me too..
so many and all are so troublesome.
grRrr...
and yet i dun even know whether im eligible for it..
if i go write so many essays put in so much effort in d end oso cant fight w those 4 A-ers..
den i'll just be doing un-needed work lorr..
sigh.

i love this pigggg =)

kbox rocks

65 KEBABA

singapore has v few of such stuff

nice sky 1

=)

went with dear to career show today.. haha its damn big la but im super surprised SMU is not there.. alot of china universities.. overseas universities..

talked to the NTU business school pple and STB pple for quite long....

came home talked to parents.....

well guess i should be pretty much settled for now...

=)

decisions.. decisions....

hmm ok got back results.. ABB... for math phy chem. general paper B4... its really good for me i guess.. cos i've never tasted any grades better than a d before... in other words i've never got A,B,C in my entire 2 years in JC laa.. sighh well guess my hard work eventually paid off.. all the mugging sessions in sch library.. sch reading room... class bench... jurong east library.. those stacks n stacks of damned notes...TYS after TYS.... MCQ after MCQ.... i guess mrs lee really hepled alot too.. she's been around like... omnipresent. zai not? haha.. yea she pushed me so hard la.. gave me countless papers to do blabla.... waa really thanks to her mann.. and physics.. my tuition was pretty useful i guess.. and my tuition-mates as well.. they're a real helpful bunch.. tho it was only a short period.. im glad we were able to help each other along.. for math.. i guess i havta thank MYSELF and my private tutor. haha cos i chionged many papers and he oso helped me alot.. tutition was damn last minute la.. like after prelims?? hahaha....

yea unlike samuel (btw he oso have a similiar entry in his blog) .. i did not pia until after prelims den i started to pee my pants..which was the greatest mistake i made in the 2 years.. i really shld have put in a TEENY WEENY bit more consistent effort... so the final panicking and heart-pumping moments would not surface.. well its ok.. lesson learnt. NODS.

anw went out with class after tt.. ate pepper lunch den hanged around.. sat and talked at cine.. den after tt got qt siann so we decided to make a move. went to meet dear.. she was having dinner with her class too. YUKI YAKIIIII.... tt lucky girl. haha.. yup den we went balcony for a few drinks.. 3 only la actually.. not intending to party or celebrate laa.. but jus itching for a drink or two lorr.. den sat there talk.. listened music.. den left the place lorr.. quite happy. cos managed to spend time with the class.. and spend time w dear too.. normally its one way or the other.. heh. im gladd things worked out so nicely.. BEAMS....

den came home and talked to uncle and my older cuz..
NOW IM SO CONFUSED ON WAD I WANA STUDY!!!!

haha.. ok at 1st i was like sooo looking forward to taking the tourism and hospitality course at NTU business school. and then uncle told me abt the shift thingy.. which im not sure if im prepared to spend my life working shift hours.. no time for family life! and my cuz explains that tourism industry is damn small.. contributing only like 10% to singapore's GDP.. comapred to thailand or maldive.. its really hard to do... and the integrated resort thing oso not sure if its gg to be success or failure..

ok tt totally jus shattered my dreams.

hahhaa no nooo im not blaming them.. im thankful to them for pointing these out to me.. leaves me thinking at least.. rather then i so gUng-ho go chiong without thinking carefully.. hmm den there's more stuff regarding the business and accountancy degree.. but heyy im too tired to type anymore.. its all in here *taps my brain*... so umm i duno.. if yu all are oso interested in these stuff mebe can have a talk with me? i oso need alot of opinions right now... cos well i guess no matter how much we read in the brochures or websites blablabla... its useless.. cos they'll all make themselves sound the best? i tink wad i need is talking to guo lai ren.. i.e. experienced pple.. and gather more opinions b4 i decide on my future.... its my future come on! i need to tink thoroughly man.. its gona feed my family! =)

and anyway im happy for dear.. cos its like she's set her mind on accountancy.. so yupp tts good.. but im still struggling.. heh. guess i'll take a look at smu at their open house... but 1st i've to find tt brochure which i chucked aside last time.. tinking i'll surely not go there.. hahah..

sigh. all our lives we study wads been offered to us.
spoon-fed.
now when there're dozens of possiblities are open to us..
we suddenly feel so confused and spoilt for choice.
wad an irOny ayeee?